Why do I run?

Why do I run from the One who can save me?
Is there a part of my heart that is crazy?
Why do I run from the One who can save me?

Why do I turn from the face of Your love, Lord?
It's an error I do not want to afford.
Why do I turn from the face of Your love, Lord?

CHORUS
By Your grace, Lord, draw me to Your heart.
By Your love, You reel me in.
In Your gentle way, turn my face to You
That I can see You once again.

Why do I hide in the times I most need You?
Why do I avoid with busy things I do to "please" You?
Why do I hide in the times I most need You?

Why do I turn from Your love that is holy?
You are the source, the life, You and You only.
Why do I turn from Your love that is holy?

CHORUS

You are so beautiful, I can barely stand it,
and You fiercely love me, it's hard to understand it
Why am I skittish to be with You, know You
to see You and read with You
To share what I need with You?  You love me. 
And You love to hear my voice. You love me.
And You want to see my face.  You love me.

So I will lift my voice to You.
I will turn my face to You.
I will lift my heart to You.
I will open my life to You.

I will lift my dreams to You
and I will put my hope in You
I will sing my love for You
cuz You love me.  Yes, You love me!

F6, C, G Am/ Am, C, G
capo optional with same shapes

So, this song is about how sometimes I feel somewhat skittish about spending time with God, for no apparent reason.  I find all kinds of useful and beneficial things to do, all the while thinking in the back of my head and knowing that I am somewhat avoiding the Bible, worship, and praying earnestly and honestly to God. 

I am not sure if it is because I am overwhelmed by His beauty, or if I am afraid to ask for help or share my heart openly in prayer.  In any case, in Song of Solomon aka Song of Songs v 2:4  it says

"O my dove, in the clefts of the rock, in the crannies of the cliff, let me see your face, let me hear your voice, for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely. "

elsewhere in the Song of Solomon the bride is said to have doves eyes, which I have heard means true and unwavering (doves would fly long long distances to be with only their mates, and are monogamous, as far as I know.

As a part of the church who is the bride of Christ, the Lord sees my face as sweet (in Christ, of course) and hears my voice of praise, prayer, thanksgiving, and the outpouring of my cares and hearts as lovely.  He wants me to lift up my eyes to and put my hope in him. 

1 John 3:3
And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.
Ps 123:1
To you I lift up my eyes, O you who are enthroned in the heavens!
Ps 121:1
I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come?
No matter what my (or your) circumstances, we can, through the way of Jesus Christ, share our hearts, needs, praises and prayers with God.  He wants to hear us, He wants us to look for Him for help, salvation, and deliverance, He wants us to put our hope in him.

Blessings!

* The line open my life to You does not imply that one can close off their life from God, being as in Him we live and move and have our being.  It meant to me that I would deliberately allow and ask God to be in control by making space for Him in my thoughts, activities, and priorities, being ready and willing to follow His leading, and by not holding to the false idea that I am in control.  So it is more of a realigning my heart with reality and asking God to take residence in my life.